A while ago I took my written test for my driver's license and succeeded. So now I have a provisional license. My grades are doing decently I suppose in school... they're all around a "C" though. Simply because I fail to turn work in on time. The first quarter ends November 1st.

Recently I've been on deviantART for a decent portion of the day, as well as Wikipedia out of my curiosity. However, I've kind of realized that I don't really have true friends. Which means: those who share your interests and that wouldn't make you feel odd for who you are. Apparently all of my real-life friends actually share barely any interests of mine or none at all.

I have a couple inside interests, whereas it's something that interests me, but I just don't talk about it. As for the friend thing, I have a cellphone (originally for business purposes), but nobody ever calls me, not even on my house phone. I'm never invited from a friend to do anything. Day after day I sit at my computer and work, since there's not much else to do...

I've kept growing more and more shy. I would love to draw certain things of my interests, but stupidly too shy to do so... if I try to draw something, it then just ends up being something senseless like doodles of stick people and random things, since I'm too shy to draw something more detailed of what I'd actually want to.

Oh well, Halloween is coming up as well. Most people probably are going somewhere or have something special planned for it. But I guess I have nothing in mind, so it's probably going to be like a typical day for me. Almost all of the leaves have fallen, and apparently I'm too pathetic to have taken any photography of autumn, which I've been dying to do for a while initially. I haven't posted a new deviation in ages, even though I'm on deviantART almost EVERYDAY now.

As for not having many true friends, one of the things I remember was when I was talking with someone else once. When I said something like "If my friends died, I don't think I'd be deeply depressed from it", and their response was "Then perhaps you don't have any true friendships." If someone threatened me with a gun to my head, I'd probably reply with something like "Go ahead, shoot".

My lack of true friends is probably the main reason for some of my interests to being inside interests. Mainly because I'd be too shy about those interests, when actually a true friend would be encouraging of it, and wouldn't think of you oddly because of it. When I try to talk about the interests with closer friends, I still usually get looked at oddly from them... And that's probably the second reason, is because - again - I am too shy about the inside interests, which then prevents me from getting friends who have the similar interests.

Oh well, I bet none of you read through all of it probably because I bored you all with my constant problems and lack of doing anything about it. And even how I didn't even say what some of the inside interests were... So I guess life is hell on my end for me. Sorry for wasting your time, that you could have spent doing something better.